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Thursday, 24 September 2009

am i such an emo?

am i such an emo to feel this way..
im kinda confused but that wont affect me in a way..
i just can't get it..and i want to get some answer..
i do laugh really hard..
but still there was a part of me which i can't deny
most of my time..i hardly spending my time being unhappy..
thinking of many stuff..and then i end up..crying for s0 many reason..

Monday, 14 September 2009

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Peaceful: The Best of Kenny Rankin
By Kenny Rankin
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Letters to my father

its been 3 years since the last time i had the chance to talk to you.
how are you?are you still in the country where you almost lived for your entire life?
hope that your okay and happy there,with the company of those people helping you and loving you.
how i wish that you look the same,the handsome dad i had once slept with,taking care of me and even carrying me when i am crying because of my bratty attitude

Dad i miss you,i miss those chocolates you always brought for me and it made me feel so special that i can't say nothing but cry. i can still remember that i was only a kindergarten when you brought me to a mall,there we had our bonding time you bought a bond of tickets so that i can ride as many rides as i can. you know how much i enjoyed it, you even took the chance to did a super shots of me posing and laughing all along. you really made me feel so happy!THANK YOU!

you know that i can even count through my fingernails the times we had the chance to be together,to had our bonding. its been so unforgettable memories here in my heart and in my mind

i miss the father i was once knew before. The father figure the strict one who always wanted me to study hard and obey everything.

SORRY doe the things i did wrong that i made you feel so anguish. for being a prodigal daughter for you.
i know i hurt you so much. i didn't mean it. i am so sorry and i miss you so much!!
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Life Goes on
By Leann Rimes
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life is wonderful

you can live your life to the fullest you could..

life is wonderful..

for those people who sees life as a stairs..

each stairs has its own challenges to get through..

and getting through with it makes that person develop more about himself

but for me..

life is a survival thing..

which you can have as many chooses as you wish you could have..

it is a matter of chooses of what and where your life you want it to lead..

i love living in a right and peaceful way..

having this feeling that..

even seeing the sunrise makes you feel so happy..

to achieve a life full of happiness and chooses..